Monday, February 24, 2014

It grows on you

People always give more importance to mental attraction than physical attraction, at least in theory we do prefer soul is more important than body. I feel it's true also. But I feel it doesn't start that way. Physical attraction is a starter, mental attraction is the main course.

I saw her image and I thought like it was kind of innocent. Then I saw her and honestly I was disappointed, looks are deceiving. Images/Pictures are way more deceiving. specially in the age of photoshop world.

Like always i am not going to disclose who you are. But i want to talk to you. You are beautiful and you might have heard it a lot more. You are not most beautiful girl I have seen, well you might not be most beautiful girl I have seen in a day. But there is a perfection about you.

With perfection, I don't mean you are perfect. What i mean is you are perfect in the way you are. I can think of a thousand way to alter you, but believe me none of those alteration makes you any more beautiful. Those eyes, that complexion, that figure, the voice.

When a boy likes a girl, he celebrates her existence in many ways, I do yours, I have celebrated for a few before you, I will celebrate a few after you. Initially it hurts that the girl does not feel the same way as we do for her. It frustrates us, typically I start ignoring to counter balance, but I know I really like you. The attraction is strong.

Everyone's life is a struggle, we seek a partner with whom the will to struggle gets stronger. Some of us get, some of us don't. In whatever life I have lived so far I can honestly claim that I am a miserable person to be with. I a not saying to impress, I know I am. bottom line is now I tend to believe that you are better off me.

As soon as a guy gets attracted to girl, she starts to seem more bright and valuable, her life seems to be cool and in retrospection your life starts to seem barren and meaningless and unproductive. This contrast makes you look up toward her with a sense of desire. It's not a great feeling to realize the loneliness and meaningless. It's like looking at clear water and realizing your thirst.

I also feel that you have little misconceptions about yourself, I know you feel and wish that you might have been more good looking if there could have been something extra. But I said it before and again the way I look at you, you are perfect, any alteration to you will be taking away the essence of your beauty. you don't realize that what you consider your negative point is actually your best feature. It makes you look so real that when I look at you my heart skips a few beat and for a few second I look like an idiot.

the way I see you, you are an amazing balance of modern and tradition. Just don't overdo any of that. Don't follow fashion mindlessly. You have a unique identity, stand by it. don't let the frog(s) tell the bird how to sing.

In a way i feel bad that I missed you, but then I think it wasn't meant to be. I know you will face many problems in your life, I don't know if I am sad or happy to realize that I would not be ne of those problem.

Honestly speaking I hope my writing of this piece will help me get over your attraction, maybe I face better to those beautiful eyes of yours. A childish part of me wish that maybe if we could have opened ourselves toward each other then.....

And then I stop myself from thinking further because again it's a gateway to hope. But then that's me.

I don't want you to feel sorry for me and neither this is any gimmick by me, I would be alright and you would be doing good either. This temporary problem of me being attracted toward you lusty radiance will diminish by time.

If I have not put it strongly earlier, I would emphasize again, you are one of the most attractive person I have been affected with. Please realize your beauty, don't follow the traditional definition of beauty. yours is not that plastic beauty. yours is more real, lively and mesmerizing. yours is one which grows on the person with time, your beauty is not in your face or figure, it's in the way you carry yourself gracefully. the unsure innocent look you have.

There are people who would like to demean you, people around you who would like to subtly or maybe bluntly try to make you realize your shortcoming or that's how they think it is. They would try to in many ways impose on you the inability to come in terms with the socially acceptable conventional ideas of beauty. Let me tell you something, if you make me to compare you with those beauties, I consider themselves ugly. sure my verdict is immaterial as most of people would find them more attractive. Then i am not most people, neither are you. Don't let those most people any less good about you. You are way more transparent than any of those around you.

I hope you get to read it sometime, i tried to keep it ambiguous enough to let people guess. but it's for you. And hey you should have allowed me that day.