Water

Today from our office we had to go some amusement park and for lots of rides. It was good, the atmosphere was vibrant and lots of irresistible girls all around that too in water sports.
Most of the rides were based on fear-factor. It's amazing that we need fear and shock to thrill us.
Three time I felt how does a drowning person feels and once I feared for my life in real sense.
Most of the rides and sports were based to derive your fearfulness as a fun thing. Now when I look back as if anything was there which wasn't on fear factor.

I guess one thing I could name, It was a musical colorful fountain and laser play. There were many fountain of every type and have different combination of colors and laser beam. It was superbly synchronized with the music giving a great artistic effect. So there was no fear there.

However I liked few of water sports not coz they were scary but because all in all they were superb exercises. people don't realize it, They remember getting feared only coz that affects the mind.

Mind is selfish, It tells you the thing it noticed with such an emphasis that you don't realize what your body have to say.

A person behavior on land and on water should have different dynamics. On land whenever we feel feared we start breathing heavily, In water no matter how feared you are you don't have to inhale, coz water wud easily get into your lungs and you wud b prone to drowning.

Long ago some astrologer after watching my hand said that I will die due to drowning. Ofcorse I didn't take it seriously coz I want to face it than being superstitiously coward about it.

But whenever i see oceans and even rivers I find it strangely mysterious. water is the perfect balance between solid and gas hence its bit hard to understand.

When there was tsunami in south asia, I remember some one saying that if you keep standing on the edge you wont get the courage to get in. I think he was true in many ways

Balancing

The Day was okey, We gave a demo to the client of whatever work we have done and got their feedback, Some of the improvement they want is virtually impossible, Still I guess I would have to try.

Day was more or less relaxed, I did most of the work assigned to me and that too in a very relaxed manner.

In the evening When I got out, I was waiting for my number of Bus, Suddenly I noticed that two people were talking about something. I gave an ear to that.

First Person: I too said buy single door, what's the need of double door, we dont have to get ice. But no, It is not something we buy everyday,So have to buy it.

Second Person: But One thing is My wife is of very understanding nature.

First Person: (nodded then paused) No (My wife) too is understanding, If she comes on saving money, She wont spend herself and wont even lat me spend anything.

I smiled at that point, I guess they noticed it, By that tym my bus arrived and I got into that.

Then I thought about that, They were discussing about their wife the first person incidentally told about his wife in a complaining tone (That she made him buy an expensive refrigerator though it wasn't much needed).

Then when the second person made this as a preface to praise his wife.

The first person felt bit left out, He subconsciously tried to balance that with an exaggerated example of his wife.

it happens very normally, If someone praises his/her wife/husband/son/daughter/mother/father we instantaneously make a comparison with ours and feel bit left out and hence try to balance that, We start searching for the good thing in ours relative.

It does not usually happen the other way, Like if someone complain about his or her relative, we somehow feel content that ours is not that bad a situation.

An example of that was it when the first person complained abt his wife, second person felt content and as an effect praised his wife.

Complexes

Today I was thinking about inferiority complex and Superiority complex.

I think both are nothing but way of comparison, In one you feel bad about yourself while you compare with others, In other you feel good about yourself while comparing yourself with others.

However some people no matter how inferior they are don't get inferiority complex. But the reverse example is rare Superior person are more prone to getting a superiority complex than an inferior person getting inferiority complex.

We have habit of noticing people, We judge them due to our instincts and whatever result we get when we compare with ourselves bit too seriously then we are supposed to get complexes. Inferior or superior.

I for one have had both. For many years I carried an inferiority complex, But then When I tried people I got a superiority complex. And truly speaking superiority complex has done me more harm than any inferiority complex can do.

When superiority complex breaks it's like falling, Whereas when inferiority complex breaks it's like awakening. And we can well assume that awakening afterall enlightens you, falling breaks your morale(or bones).

There was a friend of mine....a big irritant....He had both simultaneously. He had inferiority complex and superiority complex both. He had inferiority complex when he considered things he has faced or facing in his life and he had superiority complex for things he have not seen or not faced.

Also sometime superiority complex is a result of elongated inferiority complex inside out. For example if you have an inferiority complex regarding your studies and you are bit better in games then there is a very good chance of yourself getting a superiority complex regarding your gaming potentials.

It's like balancing ourselves. We try to balance our supposed weaknesses by exaggerating their supposed strength.

I don't know why I got such thought today....But I think I still carry some sort of complex.

Wholesome.

Well today I took a bath...after many days.....

Was postponing it since many days. When used to be home I took bath everyday coz otherwise I will be scolded by my Dad.

Mom too use to scold but I never took that seriously, I think that's the charm of the mother. She gives you the liberty to ignore her, She don't take it as a matter of pride.

I usually get angry over my mother, which is strange coz I rarely get angry over anyone, then why my mother who loves me most. I think people get angry to the person with whom he or she has some expectations, they feel they have right on them and getting angry is a negative effect of it.

Why does my mother bear my anger, I sumtym try to keep myself in place of my mother and understandably I cudnt. I just feel that she is the one who give me real value and importance even if I don't return the favor.

In a way getting angry on her is my way of misusing or say celebrating her love or importance for me. It's a selfish kind of celebration but it is.

To the outer world she is a strong lady and for few she is a crooked lady, for me she is most vulnerable, starts weeping like a girl sometime and best part is when I console her, She get consoled so easily.

If I think from my mother's point of view. God is really cruel to make us love someone so deeply that we don't care for our own existence in front of that one.

We all are weak to the person whom we love. And we love, mostly we think that we love but that is also contagious.

Her loving me makes me scared about myself, When I look inside myself there is hardly anything to love about, there is nothing much to hate about either but that's another thing. For her it doesn't matter.

I once remembered One of my addict friend's mother thought that I use to encourage his son towards drug and stuff, Actually his son use to take more drugs with me coz we both were failures in our life though we were supposed to be having too much potential.

Actually it hurt me, I started hating his mother due to her having such an idea. In fact I even depicted my dislikening her to my friend too. her mother was once my teacher for 7th standard.

She was an educated lady and she became the principle of a small school. My mother is comparatively very less educated and she rue the lost opportunity.

Still my mother would always blame me for everything. So it make me think that motherhood is more about personality than education and exposure. Education only give you a chance to improve it doesn't improve you for sure.

Once my mother bought me a new wallet when i pestered her for it, When I opened the wallet there were two pics of semi-nude girls, bit provocative. I hid it beneath my bed and used to watch it sometime as trying to find something or better solving some riddles. Once my mother found it, At first I denied, then my mother asked my sister and her denial nullified my denial, So had to tell the truth. But I didnt tell that I used to watch, just the fact that it came with the wallet.

I found my mother smiling but it still was embarrassing for me.

Now I think more about my mom coz I feel she would not be there to love me so wholesomely for too long. I start feeling her absence and it disturbs me.

I feel I am a handicapped person when I think about my personality, too much loopholes in it, am sure i will get better with time but thing is even now in front of my mother I can play the perfect person and she wont deny me, she wont counter me intentionally.

I know this thread is about telling the day specific things, but today i felt telling this only though it's not day specific.

Today I took bath and missed my mom scolding that's the day specific things.

Great Catch??

One instance can change your day...

It is always said All's well if ends well. I think it's a very natural sort of idea, It's our natural reaction.

But I think it somehow contradicts with other proverb that 'first impression is the last impression'. The former doesn't contradict the later directly but sort of.

As for Day, weather was cool today, Since today was holiday I took an elongated breakfast, Later sat for tea. Just Like Buddha get the enlightenment beneath a tree, i get enlightenment at that place where I have tea.

I see people, Girls , watches and notices even unnoticeable things. Time passes slow and for that moment earth seems lazy in revolving.

I saw a girl on whose T-shirt it was written 'I'm a Great catch'. It made me guess about the girl. Why she chose that T-shirt? By the first time she have seen that T-shirt in some shopping mall, she must have imagined herself with it, She must have thought of the reaction of people when they read, Their reaction would have been her intention.

So what reaction I should give when I know what reaction she is expecting. According to me it's a very cheap statement. It shows person is short on self-confidence and balancing it with such lines.

But then I tried to think is she really such a great catch? She has an okey face, lean thin figure, All in all she is okey, nothing like 'great' which her T-shirt tells about her.

Then I looked at my T-shirt it has the lines 'Moved to geek's World'. What does it tells about me?? What i thought when I bought that T-shirt. Well seriously I didn't think much. It was sort of revealing my condition as a professional, Intention was to inform not to provoke, and ofcourse I am taking pride in my moving to geek's world.

By looking at my T-shirt someone asked to the person he was with 'Geek is different, Nerd is different. What's the difference?.

Before they could ask me I moved from there.

Backpain.

I cudn't provide yesterday since I had a very bad backpain, I cudnt move my neck for even saying 'no', I still can't but its no longer an excuse for not posting....

Yesterday was an Ok day, Had a serious issue in my work, I somehow solved it, then there were lots of work but I realized the pain in my back just below the neck, I thought not to do anything.

So I was just passing time, In the evening time since it was last friday of the month we use to have a sort of celebration in the office cafetaria.

The HR called everyone, had the cake for people whose b'day fell in this month and some snacks, It's enjoyment though I largely m not part of it, doesn't suits me.

At that time it start raining, I don't think I remember it raining in the month of february earlier, But it was good, the droplets which are flown with air and when touches you sort of awake you and when it happens randomly and numerously It's great.

I always liked rain, I hardly know any person who don't like it, Well there is an issue or drainage in most part of country but still it's good to get rain once in a while.

After that I informed my lead that I am going home due to backpain, this is the second time I was leaving office early in this month. He smiled and said take proper rest, we will see to it on monday.

Monday I think I have hell lot of work, but i dont feel worried or tensed coz i know life without work is so boring what we need is 'breaks' often.

I had tea, had my dinner and then came back to my place but this pain was/is still there, It's irritating but since it has elongated I have started to feeling comfortable with it.

I slept early than usual around 12 pm and most of my body problems are solved after a good sleep, but I remember waking many time without opening my eyes and feeling the twitch in my neck, In that half sleeping state too I thought tomorrow I would have to carry it, not so in detail but as a notion, and then again I went into sleep.

Stolen!

After lunch when I got back to my system to work, suddenly i realized that I don't have my mobile with me. I tried to remember if i took it with me, Certainly I did I even watched the time since I was getting late in the morning.

Second thought, It got stolen, But When and How? In a flash all the activity crossed infront of my eyes like a fast-forward. It is sure that It has been stolen then I realized while I was getting down from Bus, That was the only time It could happen.

And thing got clearer, Actually when I was getting down, few people were around the gate and I could now understand their strategy, They jam the way with one excuse or other and since there is little time to get down, your mind is all concentrated on getting down otherwise bus will open, and then in such a situation they could easily take it out.

I told it to the guy who sit beside me and we laughed at it, I said I should have kept listening to the songs on the mobile, that way when he wud hav picked out I wud hav known.

In evening while chatting with shying when I told him He said 'my cell luck is not good'.
I think he is right In one year this is the second time my cell got stolen and one cell of mine is not working.

Now I am looking for really cheap second-hand third class mobile which barely fuflills the requisite to make an attend a call. If any of you guys have such a masterpiece Do send it to me.

Moreover I asked shying if he has girls in his office, He said he has one, really close but she has mustache and he can't think about her, I told mustache is good, it's erotic actually. he replied For him it was a turn off and how can girl with mustache cud be appealing. I said if girls in male attire could be appealing then they cud certainly be appealing with lil mustache afterall it signifies that she has got some masculine hormones.

Women with power is always hit among men, He assured me he will give a second look to her.

Cheated by ease!!

Today I was lauded for my working performance in the early half

But I think that's not special enough.

Yesterday I was worried about a part of work, It was the bone of contention, Right now I am leading my lead so there is no point of him helping me that means anyway I have to do that.

I was considering it a hard task and I was not able to start that just thinking about it's complexity, I was feeling flummoxed as in what direction to proceed.

The guy who sits with me asked if i have no work, I said i have a difficult work and I m just preparing myself for that, It wud be huge fight and need extensive intensity so I am taking little relax before it, He smiled.

Then i thought I have to try and I started and Guess what I did it in 5 minutes!!!!!.

It came as a huge relief and a sort of content but then I realized it also brought a sense of getting ditched, The mental preparation I had was unused, The intense approach for which I readied myself wasn't there.

Something similar to calling a soldier to fight for his country and then there is no fight only a handshake, How would the soldier feel??

Ofcourse He would be bit happy that but internally he wud feel strange coz all those charge, all those rawness and energy were ditched with.

I would have felt that I have done a great task if it would have taken 4-5 hours atleast, but since it was completed in 5 minutes I felt like 'much ado about nothing'.

Also another thing I noticed that sometime when you stand at the bank of sea and see the huge strong wave, you would keep postponing your idea to enter into the sea as I was postponing to start the work.

Sometime we don't need to assess too much and need to jump into it at once, Being practical and thoughtful may take your courage away.

We need to be balanced in our approach.

Righteous Anger is unjustified??

I was in bus today when I realized something....While i am traveling in a bus, train or car I rarely look inside, most of the time I am looking outside.

what i saw outside today, there was this man going on his bike, behind him was his wife and in between both was their small child, As he was driving I saw the child playing with his mother, used to hide his face in her 'dupatta'(scarf) or sometime buried his face in her lap, the mother too was playing with her, it was good to see. In the process the bike got little unbalanced.

The man somehow controlled and then blasted his child and his wife, After that both of their faces got so down that one who watched them playing would feel sorry for them. The wife knew she was wrong but what hurts her was the way he blasted, the child looked feared and confused, While for the man he wanted to deliver his message in such a way that they never repeat that mistake, his concern was safety considering the way he managed to get the balance back.

I thought how none of them were wrong, still all three of them were feeling bad. It happens with all of us we understand that what other is saying is right still we get hurt Or we dont consider about our ways when we know we are right and our intentions are good.

Fruit seller Woman

It is not today's account, many days ago but worth mentioning.

It was the month of April, which means intense heat.......I use to return from my college with my friend around 3pm that was the time when the sun sort of thinking to loosen its anger........still it use to be hot and dry...

We use to return through a shortcut that use to be lonely and desolated most of the time and specially at that time.

One day my friend was not there, so i was returning alone and and the heat drained me i think, so everything seemed to be moving in layer.

In the mid-way there was a tree and in the heat it was providing a very cool space, there 2 guys were there. They seemed to be drivers by attire and they both were resting there.

Also there was a lady passing, she was a fruit vendor with basket of fruit over her head, they called her and while she was reaching to them one person asked suggestively about the fruit and meaning about her or say her's.

She understood, said 'it's good' smiling bit embarrassingly and stopped moving toward them.

They said 'Really?? let us check it' again suggestively enough. For the woman it was clear and bit explicit, so she smiled and move forward considering that they just want to have fun of sort.

Then they started calling her sounding serious enough to buy the fruits, that time i realized that she is bit hesitant, surely there is a chance that they wud buy, most probably they wud buy but it's also sure that they want to enjoy bit flirting, she knew she wud be ogled, she knew she wud have to face some double-meaning lewd remark and even then they might not purchase the fruit.

her hesitation was clear as she stopped and moved forward and again stopped by their calling, she said to them 'you don't have to buy'. actually she was making sure by asking.

they were shouting like 'we surely have to buy' and smiling simultaneously.

ofcorse for a woman who have to sell fruits for her livelihood or maybe her children too, its a good profit and it means much if someone buy her fruits(of basket) specially when in that heat there is sparsely any customer. From a business point of view she must try.

But on the other hand she knew that these men would ogle it, she may have to face some lewd remarks too. It's sheer pride against practicality.

I think we can feel bad about such women but it doesn't changes anything, In one way or other we all find ourselves in such positions. Her case is only stark example maybe too clear and too explicit.

Now when I see hot models when and around launching of new car or something like that and men asking her useless details about the products, Their motive is only to talk to her even the models knows that. I always remember that dark fruit seller woman.

I don't know if she went to them or not coz by the time i crossed the road she was still contemplating with a smile on her face.