inner self on shelf?

Have you ever talked to yourself?? we often do however most of us don't feel confident in talking to ourselves.

Can you guess the reason?? why is it easier to talk to others in comparison to talking to oneself. If you ask me there is more than one reason.

First of all we believe on others more than we believe on ourselves, we prefer to judge ourselves from others point of view, we are keen to find out what other thinks about us?? We somehow don't trust ourselves.

Now contrary to common belief how we are (or atleast can be) a better judge of ourselves than others, First of all when someone else judges you, he somehow compares you either with himself or with someone else he knew or atleast some supposed standard he has in his mind for the person 'like' you. In addition to that more than often while judging you he(or she) even subconsciously alter their views based on some personal expectations or desires. So all in all its an unbalanced approach.

When someone else judges you, he merely judge an outlook, a persona you consciously or subconsciously or unconsciously represents. whereas we are not one person, we are multiple person with different traits inside person and the commonest thing in between all of them is 'you'. That is what exactly you are.

you are a myriad of sage, criminal, selfish, liar, opportunist, philanthropist, artist, poet philosopher, scientist and god knows thousands of more bearer of sheer single traits, you are all in one, some are dormant in you, some you have suppressed, some are latent and some are hyperactive some are noble, you are actually a periodic table who has all the element of different properties. when I am saying 'you', I mean the commonest 'you' of all those elements.

when you laugh your hearts out, there comes a point where you have no control over yourselves, it may be and is mostly a flash of second where you lose everything, It's something like a crest and when you touches that point it's only you and not all those persona you would have on you otherwise.

Imagine yourself laughing all out and feel the point where you lost all your masculinity and femininity, your hurt and worries you even loose the reason for which you were laughing, you lose every single worldly trait and its sort of a spiritual high and there you coincides yourselves totally and purely. however unfortunately to realize that you need to have a control on your mind and then its your mind which is 'programmed' to have you in your different sets.

Our mind is so programmed that we can't take anything out of the binary basis of 'good' or 'bad' which ironically themselves are entirely 'based on'. As I am telling that you actually are a carrier of different personality, you surely would be thinking if its good or bad? well its neither. It's what it is. it is our balance to the twist between us and the world, it's our respective reply to the difference between natural and practical. It's the juxtaposition which works and its our respective compromise. each of us has a different level from this side of infinity to that side of infinity. No its not good or bad, it's not binary.

Let's accept what we are , let's not forgot ourselves, let's be practically natural or naturally practical. there is no problem if you don't have bones to get to the levels and standards set by someone else, because afterall he was someone 'else'. There is no point in trying to set standards on someone else's standard.

let's recognize ourselves, let's ask question to ourselves, let's stop aping others as a person, let's be ourselves without looking left or right. let's be criminal if that's what you really are but just don't get caught.


If I have to categorize people , even though if I say that every person is a category in himself i still would categorize them in two ways 'questions' and 'answers'. the person who falls in questions category are easily noticeable, these are those rebellious type, they put questions every now and then, they make you think and they are content to make you think.

They are or atleast seems magical, they think but upto the level where the question is created, the questions which everyone feels and most of them without realizing. these questions in somewhat way their weapon, they won't look for answer but they make sure that the sting of their question continue, they love their questions and dont want to see them die, Hence more often than not they get aggressive when someone tries to answer their question, they instantly would look for flaws in the answers and would nullify the answers. The question category people uses the questions created or thought by them as shades, they relax beneath their questions.

Now the answers type people, these people would look for answers, they find a pride in solving, in long run most of these people consumes an air of superiority above others, they are not as big a hit as the question people but still they are sought sometime desperately, they sometime get so obsessive for answers that if they can't put an answer they would put workarounds. these people are basically constructive and mostly bore to be with for the simple reason that they are killing your curiosity. when you are curious you would madly look for answer but when you get answer you feel vacant and static, you are boringly tranquilized. the answer people are mostly defensive and protective contrary to question people who are offensive.

If you ask me what type I am, I think i am an opportunist, I changes my zone, I and many other try to make a balance, when with question people I am the answer type, when with answer people I am the question type.